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ALMOST THERE


I’ve always been waiting for my college life to end. From the very first semester, I knew this wasn’t my place. I didn’t click with the people. I never really enjoyed the atmosphere. And for years, I’ve counted down — hoping for this chapter to be over.

And now, here I am. In just two weeks, I’ll be stepping into my final year of college. The finish line is so close, only one year to go and I should feel nothing but happiness. Right? But it’s not that simple.

Of course, I feel happy. I’ve wanted this for so long. But along with that happiness, there’s this strange mix of emotions. Sadness, nervousness, and a quiet fear I can’t fully explain.

Maybe it’s the concept that even a place you disliked becomes a part of you when you’ve been there for so long. Or maybe it’s the idea of moving on — because no matter how badly we want to leave certain phases of our lives, the unknown that waits on the other side always feels a little scary.

I’m starting to realize it’s normal to feel all over the place about things you once swore you wanted. Endings don’t come neat and perfect. Goodbyes are awkward. And growing up feels a little like being excited and terrified at the same time.

I guess that’s just part of what makes it real.

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