I WISH LIFE HAD COME WITH A MAP

Life is actually really frustrating, right?

All these years, all we did was study. We kept studying because that was the only thing we were told to do. Finish school. Finish college. Get good marks. Build a future.

But nobody really teaches you what comes after that.

Now suddenly, you are expected to choose a life of your own. Which job should you apply for? Which role should you select? Which company should you choose? And the question that keeps repeating in your head every single day: “What if they don’t select me?”

You spend hours sending applications to different companies, refreshing your email again and again, hoping for one reply that could change everything. Yet somehow, it still feels like you are not doing enough. Not good enough. Not ready enough.

It has only been a week since college ended, but I already feel useless sometimes.

And then another debate begins inside my head.

Am I rushing too much? Should I slow down? But if I slow down, what if I never get a job?

It feels like standing in the middle of two roads without knowing which one leads somewhere better.

Maybe it is the fear of being unemployed. Maybe it is the fear of not growing in life. Or maybe it is simply the desire to become independent and leave behind the feeling of depending on others for everything.

I honestly do not know.

I wish life came with a map sometimes. I wish all I had to do was follow it step by step without constantly questioning myself.

But life does not work that way, does it?

So for now, I sit with all these thoughts in my head, trying to figure out who I am supposed to become after being a student for so long.