Almost from the day we start schooling, the first thing most elders tell us is to have an ambition. It could be our parents, teachers, or family members, almost everyone says the same thing. They ask us what we want to become, what we want to achieve, or how we plan to be “successful” in life.
But throughout my life, I could never clearly figure that out. As a child, I said I wanted to be a teacher. Then a doctor. Then a scientist. Like most of us, I said these things just for the sake of having an answer. Not because I truly understood what they meant.
Now, I’m no longer a kid. I’m in my final year, the most crucial phase of my life where I’m expected to choose a path and decide what I’m going to do next. But even now, I still don’t know what I want to become or which direction I should walk toward.
This confusion slowly pushed me into a deep hole. A place where I constantly question myself, "Where do I go? What career should I choose?" And Coming from a background with very little support makes it even harder. I don’t have anyone to guide me or help me understand how these decisions work.
People say I’m old enough to figure it out on my own. Maybe I am. But deep inside, I still feel like a kid, confused, scared, and unsure of what I truly need in life. I don’t dream of being famous or extraordinary. I just want a decent job, a healthy work environment, and a salary that lets me live peacefully.
Yet, standing at a point where I must choose a path makes everything feel heavy. Living without a clear ambition or a proper map feels complicated and overwhelming. And sometimes, not knowing what you want feels scarier than knowing and failing.
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